well i ran out of names honestly. so this just occured to me. and out of lack of wanting to think anymore.. i just said ok thats the name. its only for 1 month anyway.
if your wife could drive you, you wouldnt say.. hey i dont have the car could you give me a ride? thats it. its gotta be this whole like last minute panic
and he just takes off and then its like im walking.. what? all he had to do was say liz i need a ride. that s it. no i didnt want to drive in my nightgown to the train station with a baby who was perfectly asleep and now wide awake due to the transfer in the car seat. but we went. and i would do it for him. he picked me up so many times at work when i worked in manhatten. and he picked me up a ton after we moved to long island. hed drive all the way in and wait if i wasnt ready. or wait to take the lirr with me and never said a word. and there were a few other nurses whos husbands were not happy waiting. believe me. sitting there with rob and come out and ask teh nurse 20 times. are you ready? no asshole. were still writing.
tmm? well he didnt have a black suv when i last spoke/ or dealt with him. but its like 2 years. i have different cars myself. both of them. so if he saw my minivan he wouldnt knwo it was mine unless hes come by the house and saw the 2 cars in the driveway. i kind of know where his house is, but one i dotn go that way b/c i dont go to anything really over there.. and 2 i dont want to specifically go to his house. it didnt look like him in the drivers seat though honeslty. not that i got the best best look, or was looking for him. it was soemone in sunglasses, a man, white.. with dark hair. and in a big black suv. what kind i dont know. its a car ive never seen before. and for it tot ake off as soon as i walked downt eh driveway to the mailbox.. well to me thats weird.
it was sunny out so i wouldnt have been able tot ell if there was a flash or not. so i dotn know who or what it was about. im trying not to think about it. i didnt hear anything form work and i stayed home all day.
i just dont trust anyone, and i could see themn being like youre out sick and youre here there the other place. but he did say i could do some things... he said no shopping which i did do.. but it wasnt heavy lifting just walking..
anyway and come in to hr so we cna terminate you.
i finally got the call back from my reg ob last night at 7pm after waiting all day to hear ok you can go to work. so annoying. so im going to call peter at like 9am to let him know. hes usally walking in now.. i hope they dont say oh you have to got o medical to be checked out or some crap.
rob is noit a sports fan and .. doesnt watch any sports. not one. i used to watch baseball all the time.. i used to actually listen to it on the radio - the announcers were better - and itd be sunset or dark and the window would be open and id listen. i stopped watching b/c rob didnt and i havent really cared since. i think weve gone to like one met game. i want to take kate though. i think shed like it.
i got a little nasty with rob and kate yesterday afternoon. kate wanted to watch the incredibles on blue ray. except even though its 6 months ive never worked the blu ray player. ok. so i have to call rob at work, while my focus is off kate she decides to spill a full glassof water hidden by rob behind the lamp on the end table. i clean up all this crap every morning, and i didnt see it. so kate spills it all over the loveseat the lamp, the table and the frekaing floor. youd think it was a gallon of water. so kate is trying get my attention while im tryinmg to do this and im like kate let me finish and i look and i yelled at her. and then i added the comment that i have to clean this all up, and the n after all i do all day daddy can coem home and criticsize me for not getting enough doen around this f**king house. and i told her im tired of her making messes. so she started crying and rob sounds upset on the phone and i felt bad, but really its the gods honest truth. i do take time outs, but im doing all day. im not just reading a magazine. so rob didnt start with me and said i love you and hung up. we didnt talk again til the end of the day that kate was crying at 5pm asking to call rob. i told her no several times and she brought me a phone again and i said fine well call. so she spoke to him her baby talk and i said ok ill let you go and he said ok i love you. i said like yeah love u too. there was no reason for me to be bitchy really. nothing happened. so then he texted me he was in queens getting the car and what were we doing for dinner? did i want himt o get soemthing in queens i want.. i did but the cost and trime.. i was just like forget it. so he texted no its ok i owe you for last night. i said its fine ill just order a pizza here. and i did. i didnt eat much. whihc i know is weird.. i cant eat much at a time. i feel more preg than i am. i have the scary feeling this will be a 9lb baby again. and ill tell you know steven i dotn want a vag delivery i just dont. not again.
i know i was bitchy and mean to rob and kate after i yelled at her too. i dotn normally, but its just like im here - bopth your parents are working on making her happy and hse has to be a little snot and do that. she cant just sit and wait a minute. and no i dont care that shes 2. she can sit and wait a minute.
the gay guy i know for years and years. hes def gay. he actually told me he liked my husband. i told him im keeping that between me and him. so rob doesnt know. i think he might be better off not knowing about his gay crush. not that rob has anything against gay guys, and hes never said like a bad thing about gay guys. but.. well robs married. and i dotn know how hed take it. hed prob be like really? but.. why give him any unnecessary angst. but constantine said this years and years ago. the girls in the salon were telling me oh robs cute.. he wouldnt come in til i called him and said coem in here. he was waiting outside. i said why wont you come in? your outie wont turn into an innie if you do. so he did.. and was polite as he always is..
anyway constantine has been touching my breasts from when i was thin.
he has things he get s jealous about on certain girls. like another girl has really nice hair.. and h e likes to put his fingers in her hair and flip it all over and he shows her how she should walk all bitchy. its funny really.
but i do like to ask while hes checking them out... like youre def gay right?
i kn ow the poor thing his father is very mad at him for being gay and a more effeminate one at that...
ive tried to talk to him.. he asked about my mom the other day and said ah i guess were ok. thats why i talk to a therapist. he said oh thats ok me too.
well i told dr b, listen im coming back to work mon so tell all your little sluts to stay away from you when i get back. so he said im not going to be in next week im going to bermuda. i said oh its this week - he did tell me awhile ago he was going..
anyway he said oh they know im your territory. no one f**ks with you liz. i said yeah sure. so i said youre not tkaing me to bermuda? he said you have to be rested and healthy to be the vessel of life for the baby. i said yeah a good way to do that would be to take me to bermuda.
i also added btw its a boy.. he didnt answer though.it was late last night well see if he answers today..
why am i not looking forward to calling peter?
and im kicking myself that im working mon tue wed instead of my usualy sun-tue thing. it makes for one less day off between my following week.. its a mess really. i feel like ic an do 3 day s aweek anymore steven. its too much. really really its too much. i know i cant not do full time.. but i just dont want to.