Transitioning from a group where there were serious consequences for thinking and saying the "wrong" thing can be very hard. Many therapists do not realize the pain and confusion that this type of change can bring.
The best practice answer here is to see an individual therapist who is trained in what is called interpersonal and cognitive behavioral therapy, often called an integrative approach. This method utilizes not only your thoughts, and helps you sort out what your own thoughts are vs. what was placed there by a group...it also looks at your feelings and the consequences of this exposure in terms of self esteem and self value.
How to find this type of therapist? One of the best and easiest resources is this one: http://therapists.psychologytoday.com This link allows you to search by city and region and when you have a list, phone calls are in order, asking what the therapist's orientation is and if they practice using an integrative approach.
With this support you should feel better and be able to show solid improvement in due order. My personal best to you. Steven
Yes, this type of therapy will allow you to deal with the thoughts and feelings that have been accommodated into you. It will allow you the ability to think through and feel what you truly feel and think, rather than what has been placed into you.
It will take some time to do all that you desire, but yes...this process can help you stand on your own.
My own beliefs place LDS into the category of a cult and I know of people, like you, who went against the grain and were placed under an incredible amount of psychological pressure. Counseling can help the process of counter conditioning that you feel you have faced...this can get better.
I know you are frightened, but this is a great first step and I strongly encourage you to see the help I described in our first post. Steven