Hello, I'd like to help you with your question.
When did you start to notice this symptom?
Do you have any abuse in your background either from parents or others?
Thank you for the additional information.It could be three things- either you are having symptoms of schizophrenia, OCD (Obsessive Compulsive disorder), or you are experiencing low self esteem and this is part of your internal dialog.If it is schizophrenia, then you are likely to have other symptoms as well. Here is a link to a website that lists symptoms:http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/schizophrenia/DS00196 You would need to have more than one of the symptoms to qualify for the disorder. Onset is usually around your age so it should be considered. But if you are having only one symptom, then it is unlikely.You could also have OCD. When you become anxious or upset, your thoughts may start to bother you. OCD is an anxiety based disorder so it is possible. Plus it can be triggered by a traumatic situation such as your break up. Here is a link for OCD:http://www.helpguide.org/mental/obsessive_compulsive_disorder_ocd.htm Finally, it could just be low self esteem. When you experienced the break up and other hurt you have been through, it could have affected how you feel about yourself. So when you feel upset, these thoughts are triggered. You can counter them with CBT, Cognitive Behavioral therapy. It changes how you think so your feelings follow. You may want to consider getting a full evaluation by a therapist to be sure to rule out any disorder. To find a therapist, ask your doctor for a referral. Or you can search on your own at: http://www.bacp.co.uk/. I hope this has helped you,Kate