Glad to hear from you again, Dan! Yes, my name is XXXXX XXXXX and i guess it fits and is a quality that helps me in working with people in crisis. Thanks for the compliment.
I have a few recommendations for your situation. First just drop trying to decide right now. if you cannot do that immediately, then how about if you just limit think and speculating, etc. on the employment scene to one period of the day? You can give yourself an hour or so to go at it, and then give yourself a break for the rest of the day. This will probably be difficult, but keep trying. It will take some of the pressure off and turn down the stress level a notch.
Then I would suggest giving your spiritual life an increased focused. As my mother would say, "Let go and let God." If you actually can leave yourself open, you will be surprised. You will gain clarity and the right decision will make itself known.
The tears are good BTW. there is a chemical in them that has a positive effect on health. Crying is one way that the emotional body can cleanse itself. It often takes men until they are past 40 or 50 to be able to access this and other parts of their feminine side, but it takes both the masculine and the feminine sides to make a whole and healthy person. So, good job on that;c)
Other things that you may want to look into are learning mindfulness meditation
; joining a health club and getting a friend to be a exercise partner and then getting into a regular routine with it; try taking up yoga. These will help your body and your mind move towards health, and they are also great stress relievers.
Now ask yourself, do you need counseling, do you need a physical, do you need vitamins. Look into the things you think will best help you get your equilibrium bacK. It may take doing something completely different!
So basically I am saying relax a little more, get a little healthier, and then use some tools (e.g. counseling, prayers) to help you unearth the decision. Also, keep in mind, nothing is a guaranteed success. But if you have done the other things you need to do, that will not be a big deal--you will have alternatives, you will have been shoring up your confidence and clear-thinking. Got it?
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With warm positive regards, XXXXX XXXXX