I think it's a great idea to ask Linda what she and Dr. M talked about in regard to your situation. It can help you to know ahead of time and provide you with some basis for what you talk about. I imagine that even if you go in there blind regarding what Linda and Dr. M talk about you would still be on target. But it always feels so much better to know anyway.
Telling Dr. M about the impact of having told your story verbally can help you get a different perspective on how you feel. It may also help to think about what you might want Dr M's perspective on regarding other things you talk about in therapy. Linda is helping you a lot with what you are going through but sometimes there are other things you would like another opinion on and it would be a good time to take advantage of that with Dr. M. Since she will probably be up to date after Linda talks to her, you won't have to worry about filling in details.
If you don't want to tell her about the tearing, that is ok. She probably would refer you out and even if she could answer you, it would be general knowledge since she won't be examining you. But you could ask her about other physical sensations you have or pains you feel when you have the nightmares
. She may be able to elaborate on something like that.
I think you are going to have a good appointment with her. You have progressed so much since you last saw her that she probably has a lot to talk with you about!
When you describe the no control = scary, it is very real. You are getting in touch with the deepest feelings from the attack. The key is to see that you handled one of the worst situations anyone can be faced with and you not only survived, but you are strong and capable. They did
not win. And although you are scared, you face it all anyway. That takes extraordinary strength and courage. It may take a while to work yourself to the point of being able to see how strong you are but it will come, in time.