The dental treatment has been started. Unfortunately they couldn't do all of it today, so I have to return in a few weeks for the remainder.
I was able to keep the anxiety
at a manageable level until I was called into the treatment room. The minute I sat in the dentist's chair I could feel the panic
rising. I thought everyone could hear my heart beating!
Then the anaesthetist mentioned that the sedation might not work because of the drug combination that I am on at the moment.
I requested that they sedated me whilst I was in a more upright position and they honoured that request, although I was still aware when they laid me flat. Then they covered my eyes and I could feel my breathing change .... I felt like I was being suffocated. The anaesthetist was lovely. He said he would keep asking me if I was okay and the minute I indicated that I wanted them to stop then they would.
The work was completed quite quickly in reality, but for me it felt like the ordeal went on for hours!
I tried to think of somewhere safe and calm that I could 'be' in my head. This definitely helped me before they started and helped me get to the dentist in a surprisingly calm state; it also helped me afterwards to calm me down .... I just failed during the actual treatment.
This said, I don't feel quite so scared about the remainder of the treatment because I know that the panic (although extremely uncomfortable) is more controllable.
Kate, thanks for all your help and support. I couldn't have done today without your assistance.