sorry if the re read the paragraph came off rude
yeah i was absolutely furious the way he acted. like i just grabbed him by the penis. .
he is hateful. and i think he takes out his crap about his ex wife on women. i mena the whole night everything was fine. then all of a sudden....
i dotn know if its a court case he didnt touch me. i dbe afraid theyd tryu to say i was inappropriate at work. like cuz i put my hand on his shoulder.... we had at my other job a pretty nurse. anyway there was this really fat ob gyn dr who was gross. apparently she made a joke that was like a flirtacious come on. well he went to the hosp and said he was being sexually harassed by the nurse!! and george the un ion rep was like this is the biggest bs. look at her and look at his gross ass self. like hes like the guy should take the compliment. he prob doesnt get many. and she was in trouble. so. i def wont touch him again. including cpr or the hemlich maneuever if its necessary.
i have no idea if i look like his wife. and frankly the less i delve into dr assholes life the btter for us all. i mena everyones nice to him. its def harder for me to function there night to night at the whim of the charge nurse and then certain people think theyre going to bully me or screw me. so if anyone is to be moody - it should be me.
alot fo guys like that reference about me not being a lesbian. i think guys find it funny when women say pussy.
i didnt tell rob about it. what cna he do anyway? he didnt put his hands on me. i put my hand on his upper arm and he ducked away pulling away. while saying get off me.
oh yes steven, thank you for the compliment. i am def not a hot blonde preg. i felt much prettier with kate. this i feel like im being dragged by a car. i cant believe the exhaustion i feel. last night my whole body hurt. like i was hit by a mac truck. and the last 3 night si had a cold that somehgow resolved itself last night. i went in sun night fine. throughout the night sun i started sneezing and blowing my nose i started cold medicine my throat hurt, and last night.. i started to feel better.
look, yes men like boobs. whatever. i get the whole thing. but if theyr eobviously fake. its kinda like... well i dotn get it. you can hand them a baloon blown up with water draw a nipple and say here \you go you immature moron.
im fine with owmen getting implants. for reconstruction. definitely. definitely.
and im fine if theyr eflat or small and want to go to a b or c. or even d. if theyr ebroad shouldered. i am lucky i am only ad now. considering the preg and im not thin. whats bad is i have the hwole cleavage thing going on due to preg. so.. theyr eout there. without me putting them there. like in my uniform. and rob is acting kind of like an animal. a little. i mean im falttered. but im like please no. and he backs off. and then i feel guilty.
dr b - . sun when i was out in triage i told him he shouldve came and found me. he said i didnt know you were there. i said look, youre always supposed to be looking for me. what kind of insensitive jerk are you? and preg. please. i want more attention. he said li zi wouldve gone if i knew you were there. i said well are you apologizing? he said yes sweetie. and lawrence was laughing. we separated after i said well maybe if theres flowers.. ill let it go...
it may be... that dr b likes the crazy chicks. i mena i say this stuff in jest, to bust his chops. but he repsonds to it. which makes me think he likes crazy bitches with demands. and im sure if i made good with the high heel in his back. i d own him.
and i know. i know if i was thin like i was. dr b woldnt stand a chance. hed be on his bad knee.
dr b. i could marry him. but i d have to break him down like ashot gun. straighten his ass out. he may enjoy the process but he has alot to learn. rob said the process was like extreme makeover but not on tv thank god.
i dop think its weird that he brings up. you should know my coffee order. what if we get married? yeah sure right away. this is utah.
if we do get married. well im staying the f**k home. thats all im saying everyone.
dr b was so soft about jens daughter... i saw him tlaking to her and he seemed so enamored by her and her tininess. for soemreason kat eis younger but she weights 4lbs more. she maybe the same height or taller too. kate is thin but heavier boned. which is why all my teeth are still freaking loose.
of cours eim prettier than dr b. i tell him look youre 40 and im not even 35. rinse repeat. hes 39... hell be 40 in oct right before i turn 35. the n apparently a few weeks later im having a baby. i cant have it at work and i cant let dr a or b see me have this baby. i just cant. ill have to tell them me and the other nurses will just deliver it. i will burst into flames if they see me give birth.
apparently a few nights ago dr a was doing ot - this should teach him not to coem in when were not all in - well a 16 yr old girl who apparently was 9 months preg with her mother at the bedside. didnt say so. she was wearing a sweatshirt (its summer assholes. wheres youre assessment skills? btw id think it more likely she had a bomb... the inappropriate clothing ) and no one knew. she knew. dipshit. she had abd pain and cramping was her chief complaint. anyway apparently she gave birth in that bed without anyone knowing she wa sin labor b/c she was afraid to tell her mother. so shes saying her belly hurts it hurts, all of a sudden shes with her legs up and this huge 9lb baby comes flying out into the bed. so theyre racing her down to trauma - easier to move her rather than moving all the equipment... and dr a said about the event. yo i dont knwo if ill be the same after all that shit. cuz it was like people were wlaking by she just lifted her legs and this baby flew out. i said when the legs are up its too late you cant stop them you have to deliver. soemtimes you can slow them and tell them stop pushing. i mean youre scremaing while they are. you can even put firm pressure on their vagina to stop them. i mean to buy you 2 minutes. but its imminent. i thought it funny that hes scarred by this. and its this 16 yr old 2nd kid. the other kid is 2. yeah mom. uh tim,e to start watching this little bitch. this girl would be on birth control and she wouldnt even know it. id make sure she was on it. stick that patch on her back in her sleep.
oh joke from last night. a nurses aide said to me oh this place is like aprison blah blah... and i said no its not. ina prison theres hope. there isnt any for us here. i got some laughs.
tmm im'd me again in between our last exchange. it was a very thoughtful "hi' - i was showering. i came back and saw it flashing. sigh. i should tell him im preg . that should scare him off for a year or so. give me time to re group. decide what hideous torture id like to put him thru.
what? i shouldnt try to think up ways to torture him?
this weekend my in laws wnat to take kate (i ne of the kids they watch. i dont wnat them to..) to a bday party fo one of the kids they watch. shes turning one. its at acatering ahl b/c they live in an apt. anyway it supposed to have like characters and face painting. whihc i already told joan absolutely not. - no face painting. b/c i dont know how clean there stuff is and she can smear it inot her eyes plus she cna be allergic. and her skin is prsitine steven. absolutely not a mark not a freckle, not a clogged pore.
anyway with everything going on.. and they only invited us a month ago...ik havent thought about it.. i immediately didnt like that rob and i werent invited and kat ewas. that was the 1st thing. and now i have to buy this little brat a gift. that was number 2. and i dont like kate being away from when she doesnt have to be honestly. as much as id like to have abreak.. from work and her.. i just feel worried when im not with her. so robs all excited like hey we can go out. we cna go to a movie.. we cna this or that.. he prob wants to have sex i imagine. but theres 2 things.
i still dont wnat her to go. i told rob you could meet them there and then pick her up. b/c she needs her carseat etc. and i dont like they have a 7 yr old hyundai sonatat thats been hit like 4 times. i mean we have a top rated car seat.. i just think of a truck and my baby in the car seat right next to that shitty door. they cant put her in the middle cuz their fat asses cant fit next to it.
my other problem, not that ive called jeanne- but i was going to call this last time and say ok is thur fri or sat good? and find out how much longer jeannes staying. if we didnt have kat e for awhile while we were helping would be a help really so i dont have to worry about soem piece of crap grandma has that shell break and soemone will hate me for.
id like to say to rob b/c i do feel he deserves it.. lets juts go out. but i feel kind of obligated as we offered help for sat. and i offered that rob and i would help and he could heavy lift. my aunt arlenes husband is like 70. and jeannes nut job is at home.
so do you think i should let her go? and if we do.. do you think we should see if we can help jeanne? or should we take the time and run? id love to have an adult dinner. and see amovie. without throwing up. or being thrown up on.
the sex im not looking forward to. honestly.
i was hoping i could go fri to help... my mom shouldnt be able to go since shes def going away this weekend. then wed get to help - or i would at least.. and kat ewould be there... but i could put soem disney crap on and do stuff she would watch.
ok so your advice? and am i crazy?