Thanks Kate, That puts it a bit in perspective.
I can't help but be disappointed in her response to me with respect to the eating as well as her being so distractive during our time. And it doesn't help that she is always about 10 minutes late every time I come. I should just come 10 minutes later on Tuesday. It would be better than sitting in the waiting room.
I feel so sad
and disappointed that this happened. Plus, I don't think she really realized how her behavior effected me. What she says and does, always has some effect on me. It's like she wrecked my weekend and that makes me angry at her. But of course what I do with my weekend and how I handlle it, is my decision. But sometimes it is just really difficult to get out of a depressive state to begin with only to be beaten down.
Thanks for the religious reminder. I am trying to become even more involed in my church than I am. I think if I can at least feel more spiritual it may bring me some peace.
By the way, I think part of the not eating problem is the same as the stealing. I feel I have power with both. I feel I am in control. Too many times I was the victim and had no control at all. With both of these, I do what I want, when I want. I realize how illogical this is but this is how my thought pattern is going.
Thanks again Kate. You are so dependable. You are always around when I need you the most.