Hi there! I hope to be of some assistance to you here... I am sorry you are still struggling with this heavy load, even after all this time has passed. I am wondering which part of this is still the most distressing to you? What are the memories and thoughts that continue to haunt you, and what is it about the situation that you have regrets about? Regret can sometimes be the thing that keeps us latched into a past circumstance, and finding a way to release the hold may be one of the keys to releasing your pain. I see that you are offline; I will wait for your return, and we can chat more then!