Hi! I think I am just wanting to make good decisions that I am scared of messing up!
I want to protect my daughter and myself and I have to be confident that my son will be alright too. I could look into that...I guess fear is keeping me from doing what I want!
I am afraid of hurting my husband and my son..he keeps telling me that I am destroying another family. I have joint custody wtih my daughter
's father and she will be 12. I remarried 6 years ago and told him I never wanted to leave AZ. but due to economic reasons and wanting a better life we moved to California.
He told me he shouldn't of opened his mouth..he knew he was wrong and made a mistake. He apologized but he hasn't changed.
I think in my heart that I need too take care of myself too. I just need courage to end it. He gets really angry when I tell him how much I miss my daughter and how much I want to be in AZ. I am not sure if he is verbally abusive to me but I feel trapped. I don't see him doing it to his son. He has no tolerance for things that he believes are wrong. For example, he tells me he doesn't want his son to grow up in AZ. he doesn't have tolerance for the Conservative Christians.
I don't think he sees he is being verbally or emotionally abusive but my daughter pointed it out this week after he just went off on her. It was so awful to see....to see her crying and it was at that moment I thought my daughter, myself and my future deserve better. Thank you very much. I need courage..I think I am afraid that I making a mistake by taking care of myself. He tells me that I am going to F...my life up and everyone's life by moving back..This scares me..I wonder if he is right... Is that verbal abuse
Thank you for everything. I need to be confident. I want to have that healthy loving relationship before I die!