I am getting calmer now, talking about that. But I am still angry. I shot my bb gun tonight. I accidentally shot the hot tub. I’m really hoping I didn’t put a hole in it. Maybe I should try to fill it up tomorrow and see.
I am actually glad that Dr. M wants to talk with me, and I think I may try to go to her once a month, I can’t really do it more often, because she doesn’t take my insurance, so I pay out of pocket. That would be okay, except that I have a high copay with Linda - $50 – so I have been paying $100/ week to see her for the last however many months. That adds up. I DO have great Rx coverage, though. I can’t wait till I’m back on LP’s insurance. We always had the best coverage. I couldn’t get any better coverage now, even by paying more, because I don’t qualify for individual insurance because of the complicated migraines, and I have to go with a healthcare alliance for self-employed persons who don’t otherwise qualify. So options are limited. But I think meeting with her once a month, as opposed to mostly leaving each other messages about meds, would be good, so she knows what is going on. Plus, I think it would be good for me, because she and Linda have absolutely opposite personalities and demeanors. Dr. M is very quiet and serious and barely changes facial expressions. But I like her, and I know she likes me because I read in Linda’s notes what she told Linda about me when I first went to her. And I can just tell. I asked her today how she knew to send me for a sleep study in our first meeting. Turns out she did a sleep medicine fellowship and is certification eligible in sleep medicine, and was explaining to me why she didn’t practice in that area. So she knew what she was talking about from the start. She hadn’t mentioned that before. Sp what do you think – would seeing Dr. M once a month be good to get another perspective, or do you think it could cause confusion for me if they have different ideas?
Well, I’m getting really tires. My meds are kicking in. I am still pretty worked up and mad, but not as bad as an hour ago. I feel like beating on something. (where’s a piñata when you need one?)