Oh my gosh Kate! We were having a nice dinner out when my attacker walks into the restaurant with his family and is seated right behind me. Of course my attacker is also my daughter's father so she was no happy either.
My day fills ruined. He stared right into my eyes....almost through me it felt. I hope this doesn't stir things up for him. My mom told me it was okay for us to leave even though we hadn't eaten our food. We did and now are home. Seeing him like that makes me feel so sick. I can't believe how scared and upset I am. I need to calm down some. It was just horrible seeing him and his family. I feel so sick about it.
I've had to take extra clonazapan to calm down. It isn't working though. What else can I do? I've tried journaling and distraction but those are not working either.
How do I get myself emotions back in check and have more control over them. Right now they just feel like they are taking over me. This is just so upseting and sad for me right now All the memories and emotions of what he did to me are coming back full force.
Kathy,I'm sorry to hear that you saw your attacker. It's going to bring back the feelings you used to have and have worked through already.It may not seem to help, but going back to what you used to do to help yourself will work. It just takes some time working it through.You can also contact your therapist. Let her know what happened and see if she can fit you in. It's important you get a lot of support right now.Also, review the symptoms and options for people with PTSD. It will help you feel less alone. http://www.webmd.com/anxiety-panic/guide/post-traumatic-stress-disorderAnd consider reaching out with support groups. That will also give you the support you need. Kate