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There is no way I wanted you to feel bad about feeling embarrassed or ashamed. I told you all those things about confidentiality, how a therapist sees a situation such as yours, etc in case it might help you to understand that we only feel for you and don't want you to feel bad, not that it is not natural and expected that you would feel embarrassed and upset by having to share your story. Of course it is. Embarrassment and shame is a natural reaction to what you have been through.
Violated is a good word to use, because that describes the nature of what we have been talking about the last few days. You are accepting what you went through and that can cause you to feel the emotions have "violated" you. Those feelings can also make what happened feel very present, attributing to how you feel.
I think it would be a great help to you to go to your session and let all your feelings out. Linda can be there to offer support, which can be very comforting when you express such deep emotions. And she can help you look at what you are feeling at a deeper level when you feel you are ready. By doing so, you can feel like you are carrying less of a burden. Just let her know up front that you need some time to express your feelings and you will let her know when you are ready to talk about it. Then tell her what you need from her, i.e. comfort, silence, etc.