It sounds like there is some transference going on or maybe you can't tell what I am feeling through my posts. I am in no way upset with you. Nor am I disappointed. It's not my job to approve or disapprove of how you work through therapy. My only job here is to guide you through, not to judge you.
You have made a lot of progress in therapy. How you felt on Tuesday was just fine. There was nothing wrong with it. And you said you were very happy with how far you have come. That is great! When I talked with you about your feelings on Tuesday, it was not about approving or disapproving of what you felt. It was about healthy and unhealthy feelings.
For example, blaming yourself for what happened to you during the attack is a natural response. Most people who survive an attack experience those feelings. They look for some way to see how it is their fault. There is nothing wrong with them because they feel that. But instead of accepting they are to blame the rest of their lives, which does not help them in any way and only keeps them from putting the attack behind them, therapy helps them to see that blaming is a harmful emotion. It is not wrong, it's just harmful. And this is where you are getting stuck. You are equating harmful with wrong. Your feelings are not wrong because they are a natural response to the situation. But if you want to move on from your past, seeing what emotions are harmful and dealing with them is vital.
I care very much about how you feel. But in order to work through this, you need to trust that I am here to help. I am not going to intentionally hinder you, hurt you or try to twist this around so you never get better.
You mentioned needing time to work through this. That is fine. But when you talk about your feelings, what would you like me to do with what you say? I can be supportive of your feelings, but is that helpful enough? Or are you looking to explore them further by talking about them? I am just trying to get a handle on what you are looking for.