I hope you were able to enjoy your getaway some. It was good that you took some time for you and your daughter. I imagine that she appreciated the time with just you and her.
Feeling lonely is not usually about being alone. You can be in a crowd of people and still feel alone. Feeling lonely is about the perception of being alone. You feel isolated from others and feel unwanted and down about yourself.
Loneliness can be caused by a poor self esteem. You mentioned feeling very bad about yourself. That may be where your loneliness is coming from. When you feel so bad about yourself, you compare yourself to others, feel worse than them and different than they are. It isolates you and keeps you from connecting with others.
You can address the loneliness by also addressing the self esteem. Doing things that help you to feel better like volunteering (which helps the loneliness by allowing you to connect with others less fortunate than you and increases your self esteem), learn more about why you feel lonely and what keeps you from connecting with others, and focusing on the good in your life can all help. Use some of the tips we talked about from increasing your motivation to get yourself started.
This feels like an uphill battle, I know. But as I mentioned, try to take it slow. Just do some things today. Don't look at the whole picture. Otherwise, it's too easy to feel overwhelmed. One day, one hour at a time. And don't be too hard on yourself. You deserve better.
Thanks Kate for your response.
I am having a bad day today. Either I'm crying or feeling like it. I feel so weak that I have these emotions. I want to be stronger but I don't seem to have the will or strength to do so.
I need to help myself but don't seem to care much about actually doing something. It isn't that I don't know what to do. It is more like I just can't.
I am so sorry that I am complaining and acting so pathetic. But I just feel I needed to explain how I feel to someone and that lucky someone is you.
Thanks again Kate.
Sometimes it is ok to accept that you feel sad and allow yourself the time to cry. Pushing yourself is good, but everyone needs a day where they can just let all the feelings out and do whatever they feel. And crying is healthy to do most of the time. You may also feel overtired from your trip and need to sleep. Being tired can make it harder to control your feelings and that could be why you feel as you do right now.
Give yourself a day and see how you feel. If you still feel like this tomorrow, then you will know that it's something else causing it.