I am atracted to men physically and intellectually who dont seem interested in along term comitted relationship.
Most of these men are degree educated and I enjoy talking and learning from them
I have battled with Dyslexia most of my life and am vulnerable with Maths and certain elements of memory which although men are physically attracted to me when they realise my confusing capabilities that affect my professional life they seen to with draw.
I am seen as abit of an enigna .
My Father is a very sucessful man but has always been absent since my parents divorce and being with a very possesive step mum.
One of my biggest loves told me our relationship was just sex although honest with me unfortunatelyI fell in love with him but he was never in to me and the relationship broke down badly when I found out he was cheating on me.
Another relationship was with a guy at work a senoir member of staff who was married who chased and chased me I met his parents and he moved out of the marital home and we moved in together but then the company went back on there word and fired me as the relationship had become serious i then struggled toget another job and he told me he had changed his mind about wanting anymore children our relationship plummeted down and eventually he went back to his wife
Another relationship was with a divorced guy who when we met I again was struggling in the job and it affected our relationship in the end he said his feelings had changed.
I am adopted born premature as my natural mother was very stressed during pregnacy hence I am Dyslexic.
My adoptive parents divorced when I was twelve my Adoptive Father had an affair.
My Natural Father left the scene when he found out my mother was pregnant.
I know I have not had great male role models it does not take a genuis to work that out however I seem to be physically and intellectually attracted to men who are not interrested or who can not handle my struggles professionally they dont want the hassle or burden
Thank youfor this however other friends of mine whom are adopted are happily married so how come they are and I am not
I also fell pregant with one of these men and he walked out saying he did not want to know at all, i desperately wanted to keep the baby but my Adoptive mother said do not expect me to help you emotionally or finacially you are on your own and she did not contact me for months so I terminated the pregancy and I have bad days as it would have been the first part of me I ever saw.....
I repeated what happened to my natural mother except I did not expect the Father of the child to react this way we had known each other for over ten years
Is there anymore fianl advice you can give me