Hello and thank you for bringing your concerns to Just Answer...and I am so sorry to hear of this constant depressive roller coast ride that you are going through..and truly feel for you as can only imagine just how distressful and scary this must be for you and your husband but be feeling ..
I have read your email very' intently and note that you mentioned that you have received much therapy and been on numerous medication in the hope that this would alleviate this horrible ongoing depressive state.
Though, there is one other method that I wonder if you have tried or not called 'EMDR' therapy...this is considered a breakthrough therapy
because of its simplicity and it has been found to be highly effective for a wide range of disorders including chronic pain, phobias, depression
attacks, fears, eating disorders and poor self-image, stress
, worry, anxiety....and many more ...
EMDR is and has been for those patients who have found traditional therapy methods unsuccessful ...They have found relief and quality of life by seeking EMDR therapy instead...
It is a method found to be completely safe and simple in the care of a fully skilled and trained EMDR mental health professional..
Just in case you are interested in following this up please view website link below to find out more about this...as it has proven to be very successful in treating a number of conditions..
I have also posted a website online directory of EMDR therapists below to help you find one nearest to you..many do take life insurance all you will need to do is ask upon making your first appointment to confirm this...
I truly do hope that this has offered you some hope and another useful option or path for you to seriously consider ...If so then please 'accept' this as it also contributes much by way of keeping this very valuable service going for you and others in the future..
Most of all please do take very special care of 'self' to at such a vulnerable time in your life..and I truly must apologise for any delay in responding to your email as it has much to do with world time difference I'm afraid and who is next available to answer..
Please know that you will' be in my thoughts to be sure..