You did tell me that you hadn't mentioned the stealing to your therapist, sorry about that.
Given that your problem has gotten worse recently, you may want to consider telling her about it. It is going to be hard to overcome if you don't have as much support as you can get. I do understand your embarrassment about it. It's natural to feel the way you do. But I do not think any less of you and your therapist would not either. Kleptomania is a problem just like any other problem, a symptom of something deeper that needs addressed.
If telling your therapist is too much to consider right now, you can try self help. Here are some links to help:
Kleptomania: The Compulsion to Steal - What Can Be Done? by Marcus J. Goldman M.D.
Also, realize that you are human, Kathy. Try not to fault yourself. And give yourself credit for seeing that you have a problem and for addressing it. Many people do not have the same insight that you have.
Life will be harder without your boyfriend with you. Yes, you did live without him at one time and can again, but I understand that you will miss his support. And that is part of mourning your loss. You will miss those good things about him. And that is ok to take time to work through.
Thank you for your kind words! I can only hope that the words I write will help.
Write whenever you feel down. I'm here for you.
I hope you have a good night.
Do you think I was right with my decision not to accept my ex-boyfriend's support?
Your words do help. And when I feel really down and have no access to you or my therapist, I can always go back and either read some of the words my therapist has said that I wrote down in my journal during past sessions or reread your words to me. It helps in the in between time. It helps me realize that I have people wanting to help me.
Right now you are feeling very hurt. And if you feel it's too much to be near your boyfriend, it is just fine to tell him that you need space. You could always ask him if it's ok if you contact him when you are feeling better, then see how you feel.
It's good you save your therapist's information and our talks as well. It can also serve to help you see how far you have come. You do have people that want to be there for you, me included. Support can help you feel less alone and help you through the difficult times.