Hey Kate. Court was .... ummm ...... interesting to say the least. And the day is just getting more interesting. Uggh. Why can’t people just get along? (Of course, if that were the case, I would have no job, but ... they could get along sometimes).
I have so much I have to get done today, but it is well on its way, thankfully. The more distracted I am at work today, probably the better.
I know you are right about all these things. And I know I will be safe. I felt better when you explained that what happened with the EMDR almost certainly could not happen with this type of therapy. And I know Linda will be super-diligent after what happened (I just hope not diligent to the point that if/when I start feeling something, she stops me – that, too, would defeat the purpose).
I just have a natural aversion to feeling bad and upset. :) doesn’t everyone? I know it will (should) be worth it, and that’s why I am going ahead with it, but it doesn’t mean I have to look forward to it. It’s like knowing that once I have surgery and recover, whatever health issue I had will be better – but it doesn’t make the surgery or recovery any more pleasant.
I can’t believe what a foul mood I am in – and Court this morning didn’t help. I got what I wanted, but I was so irritated. And I couldn’t keep my mouth shut. I interrupted one of the other attorneys 3-4 times. I would apologize to the judge, but then the judge would pick up on whatever I interrupted with. So it was effective – but not ordinarily how I handle myself in Court, and I think the judge is probably (justifiably) a bit irritated. Oh well. Since I have practiced regularly in front of this judge for almost 14 years, and I don’t usually do that, he probably assumed I had reason to be irritated with what the other attorney was saying (which I did
, but still) .... Oh well. Fun times. Fun times. The Judge did say something to me about getting a life – that I shouldn’t be working at 7:00 pm on a Sunday evening (he had sent an email about an order, and I emailed him right back and had the info right there with me). He said it was sad
what the practice of law has come to. I pointed out that he was obviously working at 7:00 p.m. on a Sunday night, because he sent the email to which I responded. He is a pretty nice guy.
Well, I’m trying to breathe deeply and not worry about this evening. I didn’t get a chance to write down the stuff I wanted to go over initially (I should have done it when I was laying in bed not sleeping
) .... but if I have a chance I may take down some notes.