replied 4 years ago.
new thread at last, it always feels so strange. Goodness, your post last night got me thinking about my hanging baskets too, there are no nice flowers to cheer the decking, and the wall baskets are full of weeds- it's high time they were dealt with. I'm sure we couldn't grow peach trees in our yard, they would need a greenhouse or conservatory. Do they grow dwarf peaches that are edible? :)
Today didn't really go my way, I almost considered staying at home, but I couldn't do that to Poppy. There was no telling D that he couldn't come, Sam and Poppy's bf came along too. There was nearly a row before we left- I got in to drive, D came out of the house, said I'm driving, I got out, the kids said, NO, we want mum to drive (I'm the better driver, and D nearly killed us all on that stretch of motorway 3 years ago), so I got back in, D really upset with everyone, said he'll drive home then!! Phew.
Kate, I just find it so hard to tolerate his presence, he's coming along with us all, invited or not (Not), but I don't feel he belongs with us anymore, the whole journey up my mind was wondering how WE had ever come to be, we are poles apart, and now he is very comfortable thank you very much, and he is in his little 'bubble' as he drunkenly puts it, the kids are spoilt (we hear 'when I was a kid......') I struggled with the drive up, him sitting beside me, then we had pizzas when we arrived at the Mall, which was great, but I hated the feelings of annoyance every time he said something. The shopping was hard work, to begin with D was insisting we all stayed together, 2 cousins from Bristol had joined us, can you imagine, me and Poppy, then 5 male following us around, then wanting to see things for themselves!?! Poppy and I snuck off on our own (mobile contact with Sam), and looked in every shop. She is not easy to please when shopping, very particular, VERY. We met up again with her bf, and managed to find one or two things that she liked. She told me over and over (I'm with her....) I love clothes, but I hate shopping! Sam was more successful than she was! Hey ho.
D got us home safely. All the way home I was thinking about filing for divorce, there is nothing whatsoever to rekindle, I think the marriage was dead before it even began and I have just borne it without the grin!! (lol!) I am mad at myself for being swept along, and not really listening to my head, which was saying no, no, no... Anyway, I'm going to write to my attorney again this weekend, and ask him if I can go straight in with a divorce application, or do I need to d/w it with D, and do I need his agreement. I've actually asked Claire (UK Law) a question on JA to that effect, so I shall see what she says too. And I might do a bit of googling too. Do you REALLY really think it's OK for me to go for what I want?
I've found the local Domestic Violence and Abuse Service website which has all the local contacts, and photos of all the staff and outreach workers. I'll (maybe, not good at pushing my needs.... as you know) email them too.
I'm still trying to register with dailystrength, I don't know why I can't complete the registration process, but I will explore it further whether registered or not, I guess I just can't post. But I'll let you know how I get on.