Hi Kate. Appointment with Linda went okay. She wants me to do some "self nurturing" work. Made me feel more pathetic. I'm not feeling very happy now.
I told her about the whole thing I was thinking about the expectation that I take responsibility for everything that happens relative to me. She thought that was a goo insight as to the self blame, but she seemed confused about its relation to my trust issues. In fact, she seemed confused that I had trust issues. maybe I misread her.
She was also saying that there were some lessons I got from what happened that only applied for that, and don't apply to my life. Like the message that I am powerless and that I am unprotected.
She also said she thinks I like myself in general and have a pretty decent life I'm happy with, but this is just a rough patch.
She said she thought now that I don't have to go to choir and praise team on Tuesdays and Wednesdays and Sundays, taking. Break from church and not being around people for a while may be a good idea. she said that maybe I can take a step towards just taking care of myself like she told me to do before but I didnt do. She said she is very pleased that I'm going back to my old firm, since I think it will reduce my stress
But I'm more depressed than when I went.
talk to my brother tonight, which was nice. It's his birthday today.
Talk to you later.
PS - I just looked up "self nurturing" and that's not what she was talkin about. She was talking about inner child stuff, and just called it self nurturing. Doesn't make any difference what it's called to me, but I wanted to be clear what she wants me to do.