Hi. Welcome. I am a Licensed Master Social Worker with more than 20 years experience working with individuals and families on a variety of issues.
I commend you for coming here and reaching out. It takes a lot of courage for you to do so. I hear your pain and hear the pain of your daughter. You do deserve to have a safe place to discuss all of your feelings and work through them. I know you said you cannot afford treatment, so I would like to suggest you contacting these people here http://saa-recovery.org/ as they are based on a 12 step model and you may find it beneficial to attend their meetings and get support. They may also be able to have some resources for you daughter to get the support she needs as well.
The website above has a lot of information on it and so please spend some time looking around and please find a meeting that you can attend.
I see that you are offline, but let me know your thoughts and again I commend you for reaching out and your desire to get support and help.
already been to over five and half years of talking about it and help. talking about helps for only a moment in time. peoples attitude towards those like me only get worse over time. [i have seen in them, hear it on tv, and is shown in the law.] so that will never change for the better. the law that informs the public about me will not change, so that will always sending more new anger and hate to me, so that will never get better for me, my last relatonship helped relieve it enough to bear but she left in shame of me, i know you will say there will be another. i dont think so. i took ten years of suprised, disgusted, hateful looks and attitudes to find a beat down lady that would accept me. no one wants to be with an offender. if you think otherwise, just ask you daughter or sister or mother. you will get your answer. the ONLYway out of my pain is....death
suicide is out of the question for my daughter sake but an auto accident or work related accident is worth consideration. just a thought.