I am divorced, have a son from the broken relationship and have been in a new relationship for more than 4 years now. it used to be nice and good but definitely different than for the last I'd say 12 months. my partner lost his job or rather did
not apply for any since his job provider (a friend cooperating with him for sometime) stopped giving him projects to work on (my partner is self-employed graphic designer). So, my partner has no job for the last at least 12 months, and even before that the job he had barely gave him any income. I am a divorced mum, my son is 12 years old, we live in a council flat (although used to rent a lovely house before my partner 'lost' his job). I took initiative and got the flat from the council and paid for all that is in this flat now and I am working, cleaning, cooking. I pay rent, utilities, council tax. I am away from home for nearly 10 hours a day and my partner, yes he is looking after my son, well he gives him a ride to school and makes half-ready meals in the afternoon but that is all he does. He is not looking for a job, he is playing games on his computer, he is not interested in our relationship anymore. We have been arguing terribly recently, we don't respect each other anymore, there is only a step from violence between us and I am not that sort of a person who allows a man to beat her up. I work in a bank, my son goes to a great school and I am not an ugly woman. I am a christian as well. Yes, I had my moments, even everyday when I expected things and not getting them done I got annoyed, angry and upset. I just don't tolerate laziness, don't tolerate when someone does not do things and take responsibility. I cannot count on my partner anymore, I don't feel loved, looked after. I am 40 now and feel like I am loosing my life somehow and I don't know what to do honestly. I feel trapped and lonely. I am a believer and it's all even harder for me, cause I don't want him to be kicked out of my flat just like that, I am feeding him, paying his debts, paying for his car. I don't know what I should do. I am very unhappy. There's probably not much to tell me, but let's treat it that way, I had to write about it. I needed it. Thank you.