Thank you for your reply.
I'm sorry to hear about your situation.
It sounds like you have had anxiety for many years.
Your impulse to wear girls clothes and panties may have to do with your anxiety, unresolved issues in the past, and/or sexuality issues.
I would advise you to explore your desire and impulse to wear girls clothes with a psychotherapist specializing in anxiety, sexuality issues, and Psychodynamic
You may benefit from seeing a psychotherapist to express and process your feelings and thoughts and get advice and support WEEKLY to reduce your anxiety and possible obsessions with girls clothes.
You may ask your doctor for a psychologist/psychotherapist that you can work with weekly. Or you may call your insurance company and get a list of providers (licensed psychologists or psychotherapists) in your area.
Or, you can search a licensed psychologist on internet- such as the PSYCHOLOGY TODAY website. Go to (http://therapists.psychologytoday.com/ppc/prof_search.php?iorb=4764) and enter your zip code and optional category of specialty such as anxiety, sexuality and Psychodynamic therapy. Read psychotherapists’ profile to see if he or she has the specialty. You may also want to create your mental image of psychotherapist that you want to work with – Male or female? To note, many therapists offer initial consultation for free. So you can see it as an informational meeting. You can ask any question and negotiate psychotherapy fee.
If you have no health insurance or seek a low fee counseling, you may call The United Way toll free # XXXXX (Dial 2-1-1)to find the community mental health centers in your area in which you can get counseling even without health insurance.
Additionally, you may benefit from having a support group for men with similar sexuality issues in your area. To find a group therapy or a support group, contact a local hospital or a clinic by asking if they offer a group for men. If you like to find a support group online, check Mental Health America website section (http://www.mentalhealthamerica.net/go/find_support_group) - Find a group in your area.
The website Daily Strength (www.dailystrength) offers an online support group including sexuality issues and anxiety.
Also, a heart-healthy diet like Omega 3 fatty acid may improve your brain functioning and mood. Focus on fruits, vegetables and whole grains. Choose low-fat protein sources, such as fish, lean meat and skinless poultry. Hydrate self during daytime.
Physical activity increases blood flow to your whole body, including your brain. This may help improve your mood and reduce the intensity of anxiety
Other recommendations are:
Avoid excess use of alcohol and drugs.
Sleep in complete darkness and try to be out in bright light during the day.
Spend time in nature weekly
Have pleasurable activities with friends and family.
Choose to listen to sounds that have positive effects on your mood.
Set limits on the amount of time you spend on the internet to avoid information overload.
I hope you get well with all available help.
Please let me know if you have more questions or I have overlooked any. Warm regards,