It was a pleasure hearing your story. I can empathize with your statement, "....I feel no satisfaction from the mere fact of being right". Well, you are most probably, right.
You do need a physician who is well-trained about this issue and is highly patient in trying out types and does of MOOD STABILIZERS, first and foremost. And, I can also tell you, bipolar disorder can be tremendously affected by quality, cognitive-behavioral therapy i.e., good data exist on decreases in rates of episodes, durations of episodes going forward. I share this with you because you are young---only about halfway through your lifespan and some months of consistent work with a clinical psychologist who practices cognitive behavioral therapy or a variant of it (dialectical behavior therapy, acceptance and commitment therapy) can help. The combination of the medication and therapy is the 'way to go'. And from time to time, consideration of couples therapy can help. The #1 factor accounting for relapses or new episodes involves a combination of stress
, not 'taking care of yourself' (skipping medication, disruption of your circadian rhythms through sleep deprivation) and lack of social support. The social/emotional support is huge, and hence, I would consider marital therapy, so you are on the same page about managing conflicts, stress, working to keep life on an even keel, etc. But all in all, medication + cognitive behavioral therapy is the 'way to go' here, IMO.
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I got your last post about privacy. You can have the question and all responses removed by checking with customer service
. They have no problem doing it. I can't access the system to do it myself however.