Kathy, thank you very much for your kindness. I appreciate what you said. It was nice to hear!
When you feel such overwhelming sadness remember that it is a feeling. It may seem like there is a wet blanket holding you down and causing you to feel like you do. And it may also feel as if there is nothing you can do about it. That is the dilemma with depression. It brings you to a point where you feel too weak to overcome how you feel.
But if you think of it as just a feeling, you can help yourself feel better. By thinking of your depression as a feeling, you separate it from you as a person. See your depression as something like a cold, it makes you feel like you don't want to do anything but if you had to you could. And just like a cold, once you get moving, you find you had more energy than you thought. You may collapse at the end of the day from the effort, but each time you try it will get easier.
Also, you are only a day and some hours away from seeing your therapist. You have made it through almost a whole weekend on your own and you have done very well. You took care of yourself, got to church with your daughter and put one foot in front of another. That takes strength and fortitude. That is something you can share with your therapist when you see her. She will be happy to hear it!