Thank you for your question. Before answering you post, I have a few questions. First, Are you attracted to men? Do you wish to have sexual and emotional intimacy with men? When you masturbate, what do you masturbate to?
I have never really been attratced to men before my whole life. I have masturbated before and had a gay thought but did not think much of it. Usually when i masturbate its to girl on girl or girl stripping. I have never looked into gay porn before.