I am sorry that you have not found therapy helpful. If you want a more affordable alternative and wish to try it again, people have found online therapy to be very helpful especially if they are too depressed to leave the house. This can be a more convenient way of talking to a professional and you never know when one person may find that connection with you and you see a difference. At the very least you do not have to leave you home. Also of major concern is your medication. If you have this level of depression then what you are taking isn't working. Some people feel hopeless and don't follow up with the interaction necessary with your doctor to find real help by making changes. It is often necessary to make numerous changes before any relief is seen.
You have to be honest with your family. Although they may be insensitive to your issues they may not be so if you were totally honest about how depressed you are. They care about you. They are going to care if you feel that hopeless. If you put on a facade they don't know how bad you feel. You have to be your own best advocate and part of that is being honest. Presenting a facade isn't the way to engage them in the solution. Pick up the phone and tell the truth.
As you gain support, begin to educate yourself on the strategies behaviorally to move past depression.
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