Thank you so much for your heartfelt, intelligent response to me. It is very disheartening to know all of this in the short time we've been married. We have tried virtually everything that the medical field can offer for the E.D. nothing works for him. We aren't sure why. The TV commercials for the E.D. meds are uncomfortable to watch, when we are both in the room, especially....when they say "if you have an errection for more than 4 hours, consult a doctor".. Four Hours! I'd be happy if it worked for us for 15 minutes.
What you say is reasonable. I do remember when we first started living together, and he had an old computer that his son used to use in colledge. I saw the drop-down menu on the search results history, and it was a smut site, as you can tell in the description. When I questioned him, he dismissed it and said it was probably something his son visited. I was very skeptical at that time, but didn't think about it anymore until the other day, when he acted strangely when I entered his home office.
I will try what you recommend. It's not easy sometimes, because he has gotten so moody and irritable, and its difficult to compliment someone in that mode. Then suddenly, overnight, he's in a better mood. Don't understand that one!
I am getting older too; but I believe I am more attractive still than a lot of women my age. I do think I am the problem for him, because of he being more interested in young internet women. He used to still be interested in sexual moments, but for the last couple of years, he is totally disinterested. I am not too upset though, because it was getting very frustrating for both of us, when his E.D. limited our closeness. I am just happy with being nice to one another and hugging and cuddling. But I guess for him, it's not easy to do. Women are different, I guess.
Thank you again. I will try not to take it personally.
Happy New Year!