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OK... perhaps you are away from your computer. Let me try and answer with what you have posted so far..
First of all, you have done the right thing to stay away from this man that you have developed an attraction for - or even as you said, "fallen in love with".
The Bible is clear that we should flee from temptation - as opposed to staying around trying to handle things - which eventually leads to falling. So I commend you for this.
Next, it's not uncommon for a church member to develop strong feelings for a pastor - so don't feel like you are alone.
Additionally, let me point out that it is not a sin to be tempted - even though we can develop guilt for being tempted, we should rejoice in surrendering to the guidance of the Holy Spirit.
Having said that.....
While it is wise to keep your distance from this pastor, it is not wise to stay away from church. May I suggest a few options.....
* Change your membership - you don't have to change denominations (or you can, depending on your beliefs)
* Keep your membership, but visit other churches often and attend your home church "occasionally"
I would start with one of these options. Once you make these changes, you will likely get relief from what has been tormenting you.
Once again, let me say that you did the right thing and it shows strength to reach out for help as you have done here.
If you have more questions, please post them here. However...
If you are satisfied with my efforts, please don't forget to click on the green accept button.
Thank you so much for your suggestions and your words of encouragement. Anything else?