Hello there and thanks for asking JA. PTSD is highly assosiated with memory loss,
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I think you need to talk to your doctor because there are many brain activities that you can do to increase memory such as crossword puzzles learning a new languige.
I also suggest therapy to find some copying skills to reduce stress. Reducing stress will increase memory. I have one question for you about the memory loss to be able to evaluate that this is not disasossiation. Do you remember any or part of what happened? Do you feel like you are walking like in a dream and not part of your own life?
Hello there, and thanks for letting me know. You do notsound drunk you sound like a very smart woman who understands her behaviors andwonders why those things are happening. My answer to you may sound far fetchedbecause the disorder that would explain your symptoms is a very rare one. Rareenough for me to have only have worked with only one other person with your diagnosisin my 25 years of experience. You havemany of the symptoms of disassociative disorder.This disorder is the result of extreme trauma.
Dissociative Identity Disorder (MultiplePersonality Disorder)
Dissociative identity disorder (previouslyknown as multiple personality disorder) is a fairly common effect of severetrauma during early childhood, usually extreme, repetitive physical, sexual,and/or emotional abuse.
What Is DissociativeIdentity Disorder?
Most of us have experienced milddissociation, which is like daydreaming or getting lost in the moment whileworking on a project. However, dissociative identity disorder is a severe formof dissociation, a mental process, which produces a lack of connection in aperson's thoughts, memories, feelings, actions, or sense of identity.Dissociative identity disorder is thought to stem from trauma experienced bythe person with the disorder. The dissociative aspect is thought to be a copingmechanism -- the person literally dissociates himself from a situation orexperience that's too violent, traumatic, or painful to assimilate with hisconscious self.
Is Dissociative IdentityDisorder Real?
You may wonder if dissociative identitydisorder is real. After all, understanding the development of multiplepersonalities is difficult, even for highly trained experts. But dissociativeidentity disorder does exist. It is the most severe and chronic manifestationof the dissociative disorders that cause multiple personalities.
Other types of dissociative disorders definedin the DSM-IV, the main psychiatry manual used to classify mental illnesses,include dissociative amnesia dissociative fugue, and depersonalization disorder.
This explains why you do not remember this because your other personality has taken over. In your second writing I can see a very adult well educated persona.
What Are the Symptoms ofDissociative Identity Disorder?
Dissociative identity disorder ischaracterized by the presence of two or more distinct or split identities orpersonality states that continually have power over the person's behavior. Withdissociative identity disorder, there's also an inability to recall keypersonal information that is too far-reaching to be explained as mereforgetfulness. With dissociative identity disorder, there are also highlydistinct memory variations, which fluctuate with the person's splitpersonality.
The "alters" or differentidentities have their own age, sex, or race. Each has his or her own postures,gestures, and distinct way of talking. Sometimes the alters are imaginarypeople; sometimes they are animals. As each personality reveals itself andcontrols the individuals' behavior and thoughts, it's called"switching." Switching can take seconds to minutes to days. Whenunder hypnosis, the person's different "alters" or identities may bevery responsive to the therapist's requests.
Along with the dissociation and multiple orsplit personalities, people with dissociative disorders may experience any ofthe following symptoms:
Other symptoms of dissociative identitydisorder may include headache,amnesia, time loss, trances, and "out of body experiences." Somepeople with dissociative disorders have a tendency toward self-persecution,self-sabotage, and even violence (both self-inflicted and outwardly directed).As an example, someone with dissociative identity disorder may find themselvesdoing things they wouldn't normally do such as speeding, reckless driving, orstealing money from their employer or friend, yet they feel they are beingcompelled to do it. Some describe this feeling as being a passenger in theirbody rather than the driver. In other words, they truly believe they have nochoice