This is not stupid. You are simply creating your own anxiety because you have generalized something that happened physically and making it a social limitation. You have turned this into a social anxiety or phobia. When you get close to people you begin to think about your past condition and apply that to a present situation like being on the bus. Although you say you have tried relaxation drugs you should consider an anti anxiety medication. You should consult with a psychiatrist before this gets any worse. You may be able to function in a social setting if you allow the tools we have available to work. Would you rather be miserable and anxiety or on a medication that controls your symptoms but may be inconvenient. If you don't need a medication they will safely remove that drug. Right now you are getting used to be totally uncomfortable. I would also consider therapy to teach you to avoid such thinking so that you can behaviorally control your thoughts. Find someone in your area trained in anxiety.
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I think there have been a misundrestanding with using the relaxation drugs as i have left them long time ago
Dear doctor i am not yet satisfied with your answer as its so general , I think there have been a misundrestanding with using the relaxation drugs as i have left them long time ago like 4 years, speaking about my present situation, sometimes when i take a headache tablet like panadol i can creat a sense of happiness in myself in such a way i can convince myself that i can have a control on myself , but the 2nd day if i use the same tablet it doesn't have effect on me and if i increase the dosage like i take two tablets i feel so bad so that my anxity increases and in worst case senario i feel in that condition i don't have control on my body parts, dear doctor my problem is the fear , the fear start when i am with the people and fear of having bad smell and consequently the anxiety is creating and make my situation worsen, my problem is that i love to be with people and i love to participate in social life with people , BUT when i go near to people i fear from myself i fear that i creat that sense in myself unwillingly and i do , sometimes when i am placed between the people fastly i enjoy alot in that situation BUT all of a sudden the internal voice telling me that you are very relax and enjoing and same time in a second the bad feeling come to me and make me to leave that place immediately and if i can not run away then i become so tense and i don't have any control on myself so that people realize immediately that there is someting wrong with me, please let me know that in such situation the behavioral therpies can be effective for me or medications as i don't like medications
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Cognitive behavioral therapy is the best way to get control over the fear you feel. It will help control and correct the thoughts that create the fear and anxiety.
(Quoted from NAMI)
Cognitive-Behavioral Therapy (CBT) is an empirically supported treatment that focuses on patterns of thinking that are maladaptive and the beliefs that underlie such thinking. For example, a person who is depressed may have the belief, "I'm worthless," and a person with a phobia may have the belief, "I am in danger." While the person in distress likely holds such beliefs with great conviction, with a therapist's help, the individual is encouraged to view such beliefs as hypotheses rather than facts and to test out such beliefs by running experiments. Furthermore, those in distress are encouraged to monitor and log thoughts that pop into their minds (called "automatic thoughts") in order to enable them to determine what patterns of biases in thinking may exist and to develop more adaptive alternatives to their thoughts. People who seek CBT can expect their therapist to be active, problem-focused, and goal-directed.
To find a therapist skilled in CBT use this link http://therapists.psychologytoday.com/rms/prof_search.php and look for therapists who specialize in CBT.
If you cannot afford therapy, there is a book for those who would like to try CBT themselves. http://www.google.com/products/catalog?q=cognitive+behavioral+therapy&rls=com.microsoft:en-us:IE-Ad dress&oe=UTF-8&rlz=1I7ACAW_enUS358US358&um=1&ie=UTF-8&tbm=shop&cid=13244924745710078521&sa=X&ei=CHDbTt7pL8fAtgf4r9nsAQ&ved=0CK8BEPMCMAo#