Back again :)
I feel lighter today than yesterday, relieved that I don’t have so many bad feelings to do with my work situation. But my aunt C phoned me the other night to ask what my work plans were to be in the New Year. I’m not sure just yet, but she asked if I would consider being my aunt A’s carer, as I’ve mentioned, she is now in need. Here was I a few weeks ago saying I needed to move on, find someone new for her, and now I’m being asked to be her carer. Well, you know me, I said I would give it consideration if she could find out how many hours she would be entitled to, carer pay (Social Services), etc. I seem to be taking 1 step forward and 2 back. This time last year I attempted to break from Alexis, only to be back on board after 6 months bc her mother told me she felt sorry for her having a carer she wasn’t happy with. I’m supposed to be improving my esteem and worth by returning to nursing and it’s just not working.
Aunt A is in need, and has been for longer than I realise, now that I have taken charge of her tax return. Her neighbour, who shares her accountant, told me that he was waiting for her documents so he could proceed. I told AA that I needed to look through all her piles of paperwork to find the forms and what is required by the accountant. She was very unhappy that I was to look through her papers, that she’d already looked in that pile the other day, that I would make her in more of a muddle than she already was, and what was I looking for anyway. How did
I know that the accountant was waiting for her. I had to tell her that her neighbour had told me, and she wasn’t best pleased about that (mind her own business), but I had to tell her that there were stiff penalties for late tax returns. I couldn’t find a recent letter from her accountant, but I found last year's (she has years worth of papers lying around), so I took it and phoned him when I got home. He gave me a list of all the statements and pensions that he wanted from her, which will make it much easier for me to sort. I have Lasting Power of Attorney, but I still feel it is so wrong of me to be delving into her financial business. My dad has offered to do it for me, maybe it would be better. I will have to put the choice to her at least.
D was up late again this morning, not doing much work today, didn’t bother to feed the ponies, came in after dark, told me that he’s been visiting some friends who have an office in the village in some units that are occasionally free to rent. This is where D and his musician friends were recording last weekend, and he has his eye on an office that is just being used as a store room. He wants to rent it between him and the other 2 musicians so that they have somewhere to practice, and he has a room to store all his drums, and he can just leave them all set up to play when he likes. Here I have mixed feelings, –ve bc he will be spending more money that he isn’t earning (he’s out tonight, spied some cash I’d been paid by my aunt (yes, I asked for full pay!) that I’d left on the table in my bedroom, asked if he could have some to take out with him :( ~) but mostly +ve, bc he’ll spend less time at the pub (possibly), and he’ll be out, potentially spending less. Oh, and the drums won’t be in every nook and cranny!
Sorry, rather waffly tonight, no wonder our threads complain with so many words to drag around!
Time for zzzzzzzz, goodnight Kate, my cyber buddy :)