I am 31 and you could call me successful with a good career ive worked hard to gain as an Artist. Im from the UK and now traveling across Canada and had some great times, I know myself and my capabilities. Reached goals, built great friends, great times and family is important.
I face a weekly problem though where I attempt to function clearly and be myself but can face 1 to 3 days of mental dullness, unproductive pessimistic feelings and unability to be interested in people or hold a conversation and prefer to be alone unable to be emotional.
It is as if im viewing the world from behind my eyes and as if a chemical switch has taken place in my brain. The best analogy i can think of as if “life” is a film on these bad days im not myself and im watching life and myself in mono(i.e mono and stereo sound), I notice myself and the world is half what it should be and I cant resume normal service until something is switched.
I have experimented with sleep patterns, exercise, organization skills, activities and whilst I have found sleep and organization of my day can reduce the period and occurrence of impaired function its not solving the problem. From 10 to 15 days of the month can be accounted for these mentally dull days which sadden me as I cant fully be myself.
So is it possible to be a chemical imbalance? If so what medications would be prescribed?
I realize some of the symptoms are associated with bipolar disorder so i would really like to receive the most accurate answer on medication and diagnosis from the most relevant Psychologist so I don’t mind waiting for a response if you are not online right now. Thankyou.
From 2008 to 2009 I experienced a step learning curve learning a new career which required me to work 50 to 90 hours a week, nearly every day for a year apart from the christmas holiday i felt mentally tired and dull. I questioned my mental state and questioned where this was me as I knew on the days i felt well that life seemed so much easier and dynamic.
2010 I changed jobs, hours were much shorter and with power naps in the evening time and so the mentally dull days to good days are the improved percentages they are now, its a big improvement.
Ive been travelling across Canada for the last 5 months completely relaxed and enjoying myself but still learnt to accept when im not having a good day to do as best as possible, avoid long conversations, interactions and see it as fate but I cant accept it now when its interferes with my relationship, creativity, job and social life. This isnt going to go away with positive thinking or frame of mind it feels mechanical or chemical.
I can accept that whilst everyday can't be a great one that’s reality but I would prefer to have a good day, a sad day and angry days instead of having flat, emotionless void day which feels like it takes my humanity.
Look forward to hearing from you.
Customer X ;)
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Creating a Diary of sleep patterns. Achieve 8.5 hours of sleep every night. exercise and get out once a day go traveling for a year, have power naps when to prevent it power nap when feeling flat - sometimes works. be proactive