THANKS SUZANNE. WHY THOUGH, DO THE MENTAL HEALTH PROFESSIONALS NOT EVEN WANT TO BROACH THE SUBJECT AS IF IT WERE TABOO? HOW CAN I STAND UP FOR MYSELF?WHY DO THEY THINK I WANT THIS DX?YOU HAVE TO BE CRAZY TO WANT BPD!LOL! I ONLY WANT TO KNOW WHAT IS KEEPING ME STUCK AND HATING PEOPLE WHEREEVER I GO.
It is out of the ordinary for a person to explore their own possible personality disorder--typically the folks who have them aren't aware that their behavior or way of thinking is out of the norm.
I would like to make one other suggestion, though. Sometimes folks who seem BPD actually have severe childhood trauma (childhood betrayal by a trusted caregiver is thought to be one of the reasons a person develops BPD). If getting DBT treatment (or really working through one of the books I listed earlier) doesn't give you noticeable relief of symptoms, try to find a trauma therapist privately--some private therapists take Medicare.
Sometimes people will run DBT groups, and these can be quite affordable (compared to one on one therapy) and they might accept your insurance.
I hope you find a therapist who will take your insurance and who is experienced in DBT...or at the very least, a DBT group.
Wish you all the best,
VERY HELPFUL ADVICE,SUZANNE. SO, WHY DO THE NURSE PRACTITIONERS AND COUNSELORS SEEM REMISS TO HAVE ME PROPERLY EVALUATED?