You're welcome! I am glad that I can help.
I have to agree that the medication is putting off the inevitable. Facing your memories and the symptoms you have as a result of the assault is something that needs to happen. It is scary, I know. Who wants to go through that all again? But what you need to remember is that this time, you are safe and surrounded by people who care about you. You are not alone. Also, memories may be hard to live through and can be painful, but they cannot hurt you. And you have control over how much you process and what you work on. This time is different.
When you begin to face your past, consider making a list of things that are different now. Things that have changed, what you have learned about yourself and the situation since it happened, and the strengths you have gained. Keep the list with you, add to it and read it as often as you need to. It can help you through.
Kathy, I was not sure you saw this response. Hopefully, this second reply will help JA get this to you.