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Hi, please tell me how you are feeling right now and the thoughts you are having.
I didn't sleep at all, had night mares when I did fall asleep and was filled with anxiety.
I am not having any thoughts this morning, except that I might be going crazy, because there is that linger doubt in the back of my mind.
I am very sorry to hear this. What are you feeling most anxious about?
Ive been having panic attacks nearly everynight
Are you now feeling anxious that you will have a panic attack?
I have developed this bizzare worry that I the world might not be real (although how is that possible) , as well as I fear I have early psychosis or schizophrenia, or that I won't feel normal again.
Then I worry I will be scared about the medication or something, like in the matrix. Its awful
I don't believe you are out of touch with reality, You are suffering from extreme anxiety with associated obsessive thoughts and panic attacks. Is there mental illness in your family?
My dad has anxiety, as does my half-sister.
No schizophrenia or psychosis on either side.
Okay, then you have anxiety, which is very treatable. So can you begin to let go of the idea that you may have schizophrenia or be psychotic?
Can this be cured? It's on my mind 24hrs it seems and ruining my life. Its only been two weeks, but I'm exhausted and cant decipher what is real/feels real.
What can I do?
Anxiety and panic attacks respond well to Cognitive Behavioral Therapy and sometimes medication is also needed. CBT is short-term solution focused therapy with a specific goal of behavior change. Just a moment and I will find you some resources.
Because of the nature of my worry and the extent I am doubting, are your certain that I am not developing schizophrenia or psychosis? I have been on the verge of admitting myself to the hospital
Do others experience this?
Well, nothing is 100%, but I am 99.99% sure that you are not developing either. Yes, others experience obsessive thoughts related to anxiety and have panic attacks. You have been reading about the symptoms schizophrenia, haven't you?
But I am most concerned that I am doubting reality, all the time. I don't want to live my life with this constant doubt.
Thought so, you have developed obsessive thoughts about the possibility that you may have schizophrenia which are triggering your panic attacks. Schizophrenics don't doubt reality, they live in a different reality. The fact that you are able to doubt shows that you are not schizo. Stop reading about it! Here are links to information about anxiety:
http://psychcentral.com/disorders/anxiety/gad.html Read over this info while I am bringing up links for CBT therapy.
Ok thank you.
Would I be able to tell if I was developing either pysch or schizo? Im afraid I already believe my doubts or will believe
You last reponse is a symptom of your obsessive thoughts. Did you read the material about anxiety?
Could you relate to any of the symptoms described. Did you take the screening test?
Okay, then I want you to start reading that information over and over when the anxious thoughts about having a serious mental health condition arise. Here is a link for an online CBT program: http://www.online-therapy.com You would chose the anxiety program. Look over this while I search for CBT therapist for you. Where do you live in Canada?
in coquitlam, british columbia
Okay, I'll chat back with some resources in a few minutes.
Here are 2, I will find a couple more. Just a moment.
Thank you very much. This is an awful time in my life.
Choose one of the above and call tomorrow for an appt. asap. Once you have a therapist, he/she can determine if you need referral to a psychiatrist for medication. I know it is horrible right now, but you will definitely get better with professional help. Anxiety is very treatable!!!! Any further questions for me?
I hope this is all. Thank you.
You are very welcome. It has been my pleasure to help. Please remember to click on the green accept button so that I will receive credit for my professional time and response. You may return to this Q&A for reference at any time after you accept. You will get better, take care, Eleanor