Hi, I would like to help you with your question.
It sounds like you are depressed. When you feel you have no goal in life and don't have any motivation to deal with how you feel, that usually indicates depression. Depending on if you have any other symptoms, you could have a mild depression or another type of depression.
The first step is to get an evaluation. You can find a low cost/no cost evaluation at your local community mental health center. You can either find them on line, or contact your local United Way for information. They have a referral source that can help you.
An evaluation can help you find out what you are coping with and how to treat it. Some depressions just require short term therapy. Other depressions may need short term medication and therapy. There are also many treatment options. Individual therapy, group therapy and other supports can help you feel better and improve your outlook.
You may also want to consider helping yourself at home. You can join a support group either on line or in person. And there are other resources to help you. Here is are some to get you started:
The Mindful Way through Depression: Freeing Yourself from Chronic Unhappiness by XXXXX XXXXX, XXXXX Teasdale, Zindel Segal and Jon Kabat-Zinn
Undoing Depression: What Therapy Doesn't Teach You and Medication Can't Give You by Richard O'Connor
The Cognitive Behavioral Workbook for Depression: A Step-by-step Program (Workbook) by William J. Knaus and Albert Ellis
You can find these books on Amazon.com or your local library may have them for you.
I hope this has helped,