I am having a really bad morning, Kate. My fault, though. After I emailed you, feeling so on top of things, I began thinking about withdrawal and all the complications that I had read about and started getting really anxious.
Then on top of that I called my daughter around 10:30 and I told her how I was feeling and how scared I was about going down another .5 and what might happen. Totally bad timing before going to sleep, so of course I had an anxious nights' sleep and woke up just as anxious as I was last night.
What is wrong with me, Kate? Is this just me doing this to myself? Please tell me truthfully, (I am counting on you) is the way we're going off the xanax a good way? Please be honest with me. Are things going to get worse rather than better?
Maybe if I tell you what I did yesterday might explain why I'm feeling like I did. I didn't even tell Dr. Hernz. Okay, since yesterday was the 6th day after he told me I only needed to go off 5 days, and he hadn't called me back yet, I decided on my own to replace my noon .5 with a .25. Since I had stopped my 5 o'clock pill, that meant I wouldn't be taking another dose until 10 PM. And since my first pill of the day was at 7 A.M., that meant there would be 17 hours between doses, except for the .25. I don't know what I was thinking. Of course when I began thinking what I did later that afternoon, I began getting panicky and did take a .25 at 5 o'clock.
According to Dr. Hernz, one of the things that was really important was to take my meds at the same time every day within reason, which I didn't do yesterday. I should never have dropped the noon time dose. So what I'm feeling this morning (remember, it's my bad time) might be part of why I'm feeling anxious. I definitely will be taking my noon dose in a short time and one more 5 o'clock dose to make it a full week.
I know this is convoluted but could you answer me another question? Do you think I should wait a couple of days before starting a new withdrawal routine? Dr. Hernz didn't say to but I was just wondering.
Please don't worry about getting in trouble with being truthful with me. I think you realize by now I would never do anything to hurt you. Just be honest with me like you would if we were on the phone talking to one another.