Thank you for writing in JA.
It sounds like you may have some eating disorder, anxiety
If you have an obsession with eating, your condition may be anxiety and OCD. OCD is an anxiety disorder.
Cognitive-behavior therapy (CBT) can be helpful for you to work on your anxiety and OCD feature.
I would advise you to work with a psychologist/psychotherapist specializing in CBT and anxiety/OCD (or addiction).
You may call your health insurance company and get a list of provider in your area.
Or you can search a licensed psychologist on internet- such as the PSYCHOLOGY TODAY website. Go to the advanced search page (http://therapists.psychologytoday.com/rms/index.php?t=custom) and enter your zip code and click an optional specialty as anxiety/ocd. Read psychotherapists’ profile to see if he or she specializes in Cognitive-behavior therapy. You may also want to create your mental image of psychotherapist that you want to work with – Male or female? To note, many therapists offer initial consultation for free. So you can see it as an informational meeting. You can ask any question. You can also negotiate psychotherapy fee and number of session.
In addition, walking, jogging, yoga, swimming, aerobic exercise, biofeedback, acupuncture, nutrition, and massage therapy may be helpful for you to manage and improve your mood.
I hope you get well.
Please let me know if I have overlooked any or you have more questions. Warm regards,