That is good, Rita. You sound at peace with how you feel. Accepting that God can handle your problems and letting go is a very positive direction to go in. There is a saying by Corrie Ten Boom that may help you-
"No pit is so deep that God's love is not deeper still."
Answers may help but God can help you more. Keep praying and turn to Him when you feel down.
I am always here for you. I believe that God put us together for a reason (He does all things for good reasons!). I will continue to help as long as you feel it is needed.
I am sorry the doctor did not call you back. But hopefully you will be able to get answers tomorrow that will help.
Remember, you will get through this. You have the strength and the will. And I will keep you in my prayers.
Have a good night,