I have bipolar disorder and been in treatment (therapy & meds) over 10 years [54 - female]. with only five yr. younger brother Brad. He is my "memory" since I often can't remember pieces of my life, not only from childhood, but less so too. We both understand bipolar symptoms, but once I told him I felt as I had two personalities since I can be extremely confrontational person (esp. with authority figures & even police: cussing, stealing, lying, cheating, sexually promiscuousness, and say things to hurt other's feelings. When that is not happening, I am peace-loving, nature-loving, modest, shy, reclusive but likable person. He surprise me by laughing hard as he always new this. He said, "I named the mean one Judy when I was about 6." He never said a word about it until now we are adults. Don't feel I miss time but have trouble gauging time. Yes, abused sexually by both parents (not at same time). Dad away in military and Mom was neglectful, physically & verbally abusive, and gave me "forced naps" sent to my room alone when he was gone. He was a bath-time abuser (no penetration) - soap him up, play with me. She insisted I had pimples between my thighs that I had to lay still to be pinched hard to fix (I don't know what else). I have a professionally tested IQ of 160, recently got a Bachelor's degree, and have GPA around 3.5 and higher, but have little common sense: difficulty with money management and getting involved with lost puppy loser men. I can't cope with guilt generated by bad actions, I withdraw into a fetal position and stare at nothing for 8-10 hours sometimes if I reminisce too much on the past - which I am prone to do. Have a choir of voices in my head that repeat whatever I hear or even read. Ear tests show I have the hearing of a 3 year old child. Been told the voices are psychologicall atypical and neurologically should not happen. This leads to high degree of stress it sometime impossible to manage. I have to fight to concentrate on studies. Am I beyond bipolar here? In youth I had hallucinations of doom, in adulhood vivid visions when not in REM, and always extremely terrorizing dreams all my life. My therapist and just "talk" now. Little behavioral psych, just free-association type "visiting." See psychiatrist for meds every 3 mos.back online now!