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It is understandable that you would view relationships through how you were taught. Your parents example of how relationships should work was the only example you had to go by. You did not have the opportunity to see how a loving relationship worked, so you are naturally attracted to men who follow a pattern of dysfunctional behavior in relationships. This is a normal reaction to what you went through.
What happens when you are exposed to an abusive parent and have a poor relationship with them as a child is an attempt to repair that relationship as an adult by unconsciously seeking out partners who are similar to the abusive parent. In this way, you have the opportunity to change the other person and fix the relationship you had with your father, symbolically.
Men who have mother issues vary in their responses. It depends greatly on what kind of relationship they had with their mothers. Some were abused by them, some were too close, and others were neglected. Every male raised by mothers who reacted abnormally will respond based on their own personality and the circumstances they were in (siblings vs. no siblings, supportive father, etc) and there is no real way to categorize them or predict how they will react because there are too many variables.
One of the best things you can do to help yourself you have already done, which is become aware of what you are doing. The fact that you have insight helps you see the problem and gives you the power to stop the behavior.
Another option is getting to the root of your feelings about your relationship with your father. You mentioned that you have tried counseling. Did you feel it helped? If not, try another therapist. It is important that you explore your relationship with your father and how you feel about it now. Also, you need to understand how your relationship with him should have been and mourn the loss of a normal relationship, which you should have had if he had not been abusive. By getting to the root of the problem, you cut off the desire to find men like him and try to fulfill your needs through your relationships now.
Another step you can take is to seek out men that are different than you are used to. Sort of break the pattern you have been caught in. Intentionally seek out men who are attractive for different reasons than the normal ways that attract you. Ask friends to set you up for blind dates or let them know you are seeking out men who are different than you usually see. If you can break the pattern, it will help change your perspective and help you start to see the healthier relationships you are missing.
Self help can also provide you with more information about how you can help yourself seek better relationships. The more educated you are about your relationships, the less chance you will keep repeating the pattern. Here are some resources to help guide you to find better relationships:
Why You Do the Things You Do: The Secret to Healthy Relationships by Tim Clinton and Gary Sibcy
How to Be an Adult in Relationships: The Five Keys to Mindful Loving by David Richo and Kathlyn Hendricks
Taking Out Your Emotional Trash: Face Your Feelings and Build Healthy Relationships by Georgia Shaffer
You can find these books on Amazon.com or your local library may have them for you.
Let me know if you have any more questions.
I hope this has helped you,Kate