Do I have expressive language dysfunctions?
Most of the time, I feel frustrated without knowing why. I think I have expressive language dysfunctions because it takes me too long to come up with the right word when speaking, I have poor vocabulary, I can't summerize or eraborate events that's happened to me.( For instance, when a friend asked me what I did
today, I just can't recall the day's events and just say 'I didn't do anything.') But I use inaccurate/inappropriate words anyways to keep convesations going, but since I don't describe things correctly I often feel stuck during a conversation, and it affects my own understanding of myself because I don't express myself accurately. My friends tell me to write my thoughts down on paper in problem-solving, but whenever I try to do it my mind goes blank and I'm at a loss for words. So I'm not good at problem-solving. When I feel frustrated, stressed or depressed, I just can't define the problem. So when I know that there's something wrong, I don't know what to do about it because I don't know what is the real problem.
Also, when I try to research something on the net to learn something new, I forget what I was trying to search and stopped doing it halfway through without gaining anything from it. I feel stuck again.
Since I can't express myself accurately, I have difficulty communicating with others. Even when I do my best, XXXXX XXXXX confuse the other person who's listening. So I tend to withdraw altogether to avoid people in general.
I feel that other people instinctively know how things work, but I feel I'm standing in the middle of nowhere. Most of the time, I feel anxious, frustrated because I can't rely on my own understanding of things, or my memory.
I was diagnosed with schipaohrenia about 5 years ago, but even when schizophrenia
sysptoms are almost gone, I still feel that there's something wrong with me. Maybe I have misunderstood language dysfunctions so that I developped the illness to cover up the real problem because it was easier for me to deal with schizophrenia than language dysfunctions?