hey im 19 i alweys had a problem getting excited about things. im not even sure what excited is. when im presentet with doing somthing i can't say i ever felt excited about it.
I just feel that its maby going to be funn and be like okey il go. mostly i stay home.
the same thing about work its importen to feel excited about it apperently but i just can't get excited about it. i might loose the job after a while because of that but thats okey il have plans for that. i dont have much emotions in general tho. my mind mostly drift around in fantasies while i work.
if someone asked me whats the thing i been most excited about. i dont think i could answer that casue im not sure what it is.
soo how to i get into things i mostly get very into things but i well only watch videos/anime/read manga and play games. have a server with a cuple of friends and such. play rebal/paintball somthimes but i dont really get excited about it. its just alitle funn.
maby its cause i alweys been a very litterly thinker it is what it is.
i think it would be good for me if i could get excited about work tho or school but i never been able to.
im maby alittle diffrent from most people my age like i dont want to have a GF now cause all relationships at this age are just temporarly and people dont seem to know em self. or are just after funn in relationships soo i planed to wait until im 23 pluss or somthing like that.
altho i know its a good to have the experience.
its not that i have little money and life is crap everythings good really and i have alot of money.
i basicly have my intrest inside one area wich i mentioned. soo im better at typing english then my own language.
people think i am a big zombie somthimes because im not in a hurry if we gotta make somthing or seem energized about the event.
when i was in school teachers alweys told me it was going to be soo much better when i got it and such feeling the motivation and excited about it. but even when i did
great somthimes it just was what it was. a good grade from some work.
and i never had any goals in my life exept to just enjoy it and have funn.
1 of my friends tries to get me excited about stuff all the time. also lost one friend cause im alweys just like cool and not pumped and excited about it.
and i havent goten around to take the driver licens yet ether because i think its soo incredibily booring to drive and can't say i feel exited about controling the car paying constant attention to whats happening around you instead of rellaxing on the buss/sleeping
. and its much more expensive to have a car and its not like i travel around alot. but at the same time i know its a good thing to have somthimes.
can be usefull in some jobs aswell. altho i ofcourse would prefer a job where i never had to drive.
and when i dream in my sleep i never have emotion in the dreams ether. and alweys been like that. after i got awaken once when i was 9 from a dream where i fell of from a clip. it was like i just learned my brain right there and then its just dreams. because after that when i die in dreams or what insane crazy things happen il just watch it.
and i never get angry at people almost. it would be more then someone calling me names and such. dont see why care.
soo now i said alot about some stuff about my emotion. some alitle unusual things maby some of this can help in seeing why i never get excited about stuff wich is an importen part in work of life. (some jobs atleast in my case)
or learn alittle more about my self. beacuase of the people that gotten sad
or angry at me because i dont build upp my emotion or get excited. some people also got angry because the way i think. and it dosen't often help to say its just my opinion about stuff when people first get angry.
besiede i my self belive i can't change but its alweys worth looking into.