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Have you been to an inpatient eating disorders program?
no i dont think i can afford that..just got a job as an RN at a hospital
one thing i hadnt mentioned is that i had an eating disorder when i was younger..and it crept up throughout the years but i also drank and used drugs for many years. When i stopped and was sober for 2 months this last time..that is when something just shifted and i stopped eating. I have been sober for 6months now but almost worse than when using.
Are you in a 12 step program?
i have kinda isolated myself
Can you tell me why?
i feel like a failure around happy people :)
dont know how else to describe it
lol...so do many in meetings.
they think i am definitely using because i havent been to meetings
It sounds like you're not new to your symptoms and you've got a bit of a grasp on what your options are. Also being an RN helps you see more than most. Do you want me to be straight up, gloves off with you?
You're in trouble and you're not going to be able to hide it for very long. I doubt any of your healthcare providers are clueless about your anorexia.
You're skidding down a path that is going to require drastic measures to halt.
yeah kinda worried about that and also what my therapist is planning
If you don't get the help you need right away, you're going to lose more than your house and custody of your son...you're going to lose the chance to ever get any of that back. It's time for either inpt or IOP.
There isn't another way
what is IOP?
I don't even know if meetings up the wazoo would help you at this point, but if you want to take the option that has the most control for you and the least chance of success, that would be the option. Yes..IOP is partial
If you get mandated to treatment, your license is going to be in jeapardy....what hell that is.
i dont think they offer that around here but i work nites so it could work
for eating disorders too?
Call around to treatment centers....any where that has a women's unit or an outpt program should be able to combine ED treatment with IOP addictions treatment.
ok hadnt thought of it that way
It's a start, and you need to batten down the hatches and run for help before you lose more than you bargained for. The life you're in right now is just Hellish and incredibly painfull. You can't stay in it long.
ok thanks..part of my fear has been the fact that i would go back to using if i start eating
so a dual thing might be good
My heart goes out to you, but you're not the only one to face these issues...women do recover and lead good lives. It's hard, but so is college and NCLEX exams and parenthood. You can do this. I understand your fear of using if you eat...it's very common....but you're not alone, and others have made paths behind them.....
thanks for your help:)
Think of how your experiences can help the ones behind you.....this could be your calling as a nurse. You never know....
But I do know that you need to seek drastic measures. It's time for crisis management.
alright thanks again for your input
thanks for your help:) You're welcome. Be gentle with yourself, and get the help you deserve. Anna
going to google now and see what is available