am a 33 year old female who suffers from chronic insomnia
and depression around the same time every year usually the winter. Lately I noticed that my concentration is extremely poor, I lose things all the time or put them places I never find, I have a hard time concentrating on what I am learning in school or reading text at times, I have a poor self image. I often talk to people in a low voice and mispronounce my words or slur my speech. I would sometimes be in the same pissed off mood for weeks sometimes I would feel that I have little control over it or aware of why I would do it. I like to be low key and private at all times not a easy thing to do. At times lately I would act childish in public this prompted a couple people to look at my ID (which was very embarrassing for me). Frequently worried about the safety of my driving because of the sleep, sometimes I am paranoid of people what I watch on tv and generally distrustful.
My memory is pretty poor I would read something three times and not grasp what is being said. When i talk to people it gives me a great anxiety
, the blood would rush to my face and my heart would race. I avoid social situations and prefer to hang out with my immediate family. I am currently in school struggling to keep up I recently had a major depression bout were I would not get out of bed, missed classes, didn't sleep for sometimes weeks. I have financial concerns. The past week I have been trying to do catch up and I feel overwhelmed because of my concentration.
Lately, to fight this I have been taking long walks and doing some moderate exercise , I have been trying to get my sleep back to a normal schedule. I take Trazadone, it has been helping me sleep lately I am happy with it. I also take Colazepam to help with the anxiety it has been helping to relax me. However I still feel that my concentration level is extremely poor and often feel empty in social situations. This is a concern for me is there any suggestions that you recommend as far as a medication or program? I want my life back but I realize that it is going to take time.