Hello and thank you for your question.
You have a lot of insight into how you are feeling and it's very good that you are able to reel yourself back in, when you start to feel like you're going over the edge. And staying involved with friends, social activities, exercise, changing your thoughts etc are all helpful things to do, even when you don't feel like it. Is there a counseling center at the college, and also do you live at home or on campus?
Thank you for the information. I can certainly hear how frustrated you are with how you are feeling and also very angry and frustrated with your parents for not listening to you, and getting you the help that you need.
It's very admirable that you have gone to great lengths to self-educate through books etc. on how to help yourself. I can tell that you really want to feel better and that you are desperate for this to happen. I can't imagine why on earth your parents would ignore your pleas for therapy, but that is definitely what you need.
I understand that you don't have the money for that, however it is imperative that you go to the session you have scheduled for Monday. don't worry that it's stated to improve your grades. You go in there and tell the counselor everything that you have written to me here. You need professional help with how you are feeling and I can assure you that with good therapy, you can and will feel better.
I know you don't want to hear this, but college is important and you are an intelligent young woman, who is obviously very gifted and talented. You may not feel it's important now, but getting an education is going to only serve you, no matter which vocation or life path you choose for yourself. Right now, however what is most important is that you feel much more stabilized and supported. There is a world full of people who are healthy and who will and can support you in your own mental health and growth. So, please know that though your parents didn't seem to hear you or understand your needs, that other people can and will.
Which part of the country do you live in, and I will also research some counseling centers for you that are free or very low cost, so that you can be sure to get the help you need. Please click ACCEPT button, and than also tell me which part of the country you are currently in. Thank you
I'm researching now for places in Amherst, MA ...
This looks really interesting with a holistic approach. Sliding scale counseling and also an option for low cost counseling with interns. Interns can be really great because they are often younger and have alot of motivation too. Click on the part that says low-cost counseling with interns at bottom of the page.
look under Hampshire heading, down towards the middle to end for some in Amherst. Low cost counseling for teens.
You can also call some of the places from second link and ask them for more referrals if needed. But please do get the help you need as it is out there. You don't need to be out on a limb, trying to figure this all out on your own.
I think then that you would really like the first link I sent to you, as it's more holistic oriented.
The facilities are in my email just above, so look above in our thread... thanks,
You're very welcome. So, I'm assuming you saw the links above then....good.
If you need to ask for me here, when you write a question just put To Kristin, and I will be the one to answer it for you.
Thank you for the bonus too! very kind of you...