Hello- Thank you for asking the question here at JustAnswer. I have read what you have written and am happy to respond.
I am sorry to hear about the way you have been feeling. What you describe are feelings of panic disorder which is 100% treatable, however, you have to get to a mental health center of physician (ideally a Psychiatrist) because you will need to get this under control with medication.
Here is the description of Panic Disorder:
Read the above and make an appointment with your doctor.
I wish you the best, Bill
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