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I am sorry to hear about your distress. In this situation you should contact the Emergency Mental Health Service in your Community and seek immediate assistance. They should have a 24 hour number available for you to make contact.
Read about depression and anxiety at the following site and learn how they feed into one another and self help exercises.
This will help in the short term
I wish you the best..